David Hochberg, I know for a fact that you're reading this!

just putting that out there....

the obligatory heath ledger post.

o heath, why did you leave us in our hour of need? well, that's all i got: i think now i must go and watch 10 things i hate about you, mainly because i need something to cheer me up.

hmmmmmmmmm

well i'm sitting on the couch..... blah...

people are all upset and shit, and it's bad. lina just said "what?" "montana what?" "what?"

now annie is starting in on the game! i don't understand! this guy standing outside is the busdriver, uhoh.... he's gone. montana's mouth is so big it'd take a big chunk outaya@!

excitement ensuing......?

it's friday and i should be excited about returning to New York today, and yet at the same time I can't help but dread the coming events of this long weekend. The copious amount of work that i have to look forward to doing is rather daunting prospectively. 

UGH UGH UGH. well yeah anyway, since it's been a relatively non-spontaneous week i feel a good rant coming on. I'm supposed to see my boyfriend David tonight, he seems to be under the impression that taking a 1.5 hour train ride into the city every weekend is not that big of a deal, or moreover that my life should simply revolve around his needs. I HAVE SO MUCH WORK OMIGAWD! HOW WILL I FIND TIME TO BOTH STUDY AND DO HOMEWORK AND SEE DAVID!!!! I ASK YOU TENDER AUDIENCE: HOW!?? 

ok, i feel better, on to new, news(redundancy?) ok so this week something really pissed me off, and rather than it being an immediate piss off moment it's more of a climactic piss off mode that builds gradually as a result of sleep deprivation and anxiety. what is this thing that pisses me off so you ask? BRIAN BERTUCCI!!!! this asshole seems to be under the impression that because he has a nice body that i have "the hots" for him. THIS SOME BULLSHIT(pardon the illiteracy)! the act itself might not have been as big of a deal had he told one of my friends that it was unnatural for a guy to like another guy, had it been a girl he probably would have simply ignored the situation if she was undesirable. but he and his heckling friends chose to mock me for that. i don't know what I'm even typing anymore, I'm just angry. 

thomas the "unnatural"

slush and snow

I don't think that i have been this happy in weeks. after many days of patience i have finally been rewarded, in the dinky town of Newhope, Pennsylvania, with a thick blanket of powdery snow. as i speak(type) I'm looking out of my window to the sight of flurrying snowflakes.

 this snow has somewhat of a deeper meaning to it though: a clean slate. i feel like i need to start over and rethink the way i have been living. unfortunately like the snow, life tends to get dirty and unpleasant; often one would sooner sit in their home then rise to meet the unpleasantries he or she encounters in their day to day lives( the soppy gross brown snow), but one must, and eventually the slushy mud will melt and evaporate into the air and return restored to it's former immaculate state. sure life is full of conflicts but if you choose to avoid them altogether then you'll probably end up missing the brief time when life's snow is truly wonderful.

another week, another guy

so this weekend was grand. i went to a formal on friday night, all the guys were gay.... IT WAS AWESOME! I met this cool guy named david there he's a dancer and i really like him. the following saturday we went to see an awesome movie: juno. if there is any movie you should go and see on a date, it's juno. i know that perhaps i should be talking more about marine biology but fuck it, it's my blog and i'll write what i want to. 

getting back to what i was saying earlier, i find myself in an emotional dilemma, i feel really positive about dave, but i can only see him during the weekends when i'm home from school. that sort of complicates a relationship. i hope that he will stay interested. because i would hate to lose him.

okay

by darlings

thom

there will be dark days and all that shit....

so i went on a blind date yesterday...... never again never again..... it wasn't so much the guy's appearance that bothered me, as his lack of conversational skills or tact! or perhaps it was his blatantly anti-Semitic and homophobic remarks! the movie we had originally intended to see is a delightful romp entitled: juno, fortunately Juno was sold out by the time my date arrived (late!)  so we chose the next best thing, There Will Be Blood, which was overall a better choice as it was a 3 hour film which consumed the entire time of the date and destroy any romantic feelings that he may have felt for me before.

the moral of the story mein kinder, playing with toxic chemicals is dangerous.

ciao babies!

Tom